Na Bado


28.11.2016 | photo by Poon

Celebrating one year since this glorious, gloomy day in Edinburgh- my MSc graduation. This was one of my best days in 2016. I had a really wonderful time after what had been a very frustrating week.

I think I’ve said this before elsewhere but my time in Edinburgh was so special. It shaped my world view and work ethic and I can’t thank my God enough. God took me there, looked after me and made sure I left with both my hands and heart full.

I had never considered a PHd. For a while, it had felt like I could barely manage being in the academy- the pressure, my goodness! It makes you feel small and insignificant. But towards the end of my programme, watching some of the incredible PHd candidates in our department, I wondered what it would be like to be on the other side- creating knowledge and influencing ways of learning. Aside from the personal interest, I take with great seriousness the need for more black, African, women scholars influencing world views and decolonizing the academy.

I hope to start on this journey in the future. But for now, I celebrate all that I am becoming. I will get there. I’m living and loving the space I’m in right now. Most of you know how much I was looking forward to coming home! I love being here and feeling first hand the currents that are driving the future of this country. I’m also in the early stages of a career that is stretching and teaching me so much. This is not to say that it’s easy and a joyous occasion everyday. There are some really difficult days- sometimes weeks! And it can be a mammoth task to get on with what I have to do. In those moments, I try not to look for an antidote. This is what life feels like sometimes. You just try to get used to it.

I’m looking ahead but once in a while it feels good to look back and feed off the energy of past accomplishments.

Thank you to my lecturers whose teachings still guide me to this day. Thank you to my friends- some of who I am delighted to still be close to. Thank you to my family, whose love and support has fueled me every step of the way.

And most importantly, to the God I serve.. I shine because of you. May I never forget that my strength comes from You.

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© Tessy Maritim

This Month in Music (October 2017)

Underground, London

Happy new month, friends! Here are the songs that took me through October. Enjoy.

Track List

Spirit- Kwesta ft. Wale

China Love- Victoria Kimani ft. R.City

Green Light- Cuppy and Tekno

Spice Girl- Amine

Nightshift- Commodores

Escape- Enrique Iglesias

Figures- Jessie Reyez (A COLORS Show)

Come Close- Common ft. Mary J. Blige

Big Kids- B.o.B ft. CeeLo Green and Usher

Big For Your Boots- Stormzy

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October Debrief (Audio Post)


captured in Nandi County

Introducing my monthly ‘Debrief’ in which I subject you to a little ramble about how my month went. Basically, new format to my previous ‘Thank You’ posts!

I hope you enjoy it! Press play, below:

References made:

  • Tetu Shani– find him on Instagram and check him out on YouTube
  • MatchMentor– would love to see you there! Please come or share with someone you know who could benefit from the event. Link here with all the details on the mentors, sessions and how to get tickets.

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#faves- Apps on iPhone

 

El Pastor- Borough Market, London

Bible App

What I use it for– Divine intervention

I’ve lost my physical bible so having a digital one is a great fallback. I’m still going to need a physical one though! There’s something about turning the pages of a physical bible.

Camcorder

What I use it for– Making home video aesthetics.

I use this app mostly for videos on my instastories. It transforms it into a really pretty home-video (with the date and time at the bottom left of the screen). If you follow me on Instagram, you know how cute it looks!

CamScanner

What I use it for– Scanning documents when I’m not near a scanner.

I use this app to scan documents on my phone. It’s particularly useful when I’m not in the office and need to scan something quickly.

Clue

What I use it for– Tracking my period.

My sister, Tebby introduced me to this app a while ago. It helps you track your period, fertile window and PMS days. You’re supposed to help make the app more accurate by putting information about your cycle e.g. sleep patterns, emotions, bleeding, energy etc. It’s great!

Heads Up

What I use it for– Games night

If you’re with friends or family at a gathering, ‘Heads Up‘ is a really fun and competitive game to play!

Taxify

What I use it for– Moving around Nairobi.

Although I have both Uber and Taxify on my phone, I mostly use Taxify because it’s cheaper. I’ve heard some people complain about it, but my experience has been pretty good so far.

What apps do you use? I’d love some recommendations, please share.

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© Tessy Maritim

This Month in Music (September 2017)

Music is such a central part of my life so I’ve been thinking about how to incorporate it into my blog. From this month, I’ll be sharing a monthly playlist with you- a curation of what I’ve been listening to. Music that’s made me smile, think, cry and dance. Some old tunes, some new.

Queen Alia International Airport, Amman

Happy new month, friends! Here are the songs that took me through September. Enjoy.

Track List:

Magic (Medley)- Maleek Berry

That’s The Way It Is- Celine Dion

What Lovers Do- Maroon 5 ft. SZA

My Love is Your Love- Whitney Houston

Overnight Celebrity- Twista

Angel- Shaggy ft. Rayvon

Versace on the Floor- Bruno Mars

You Gotta Be- Des’ree

Acapella- Kelis

Seduce Me- Ali Kiba

Faithful- Me’Shell Ndegeocello

Million Voice- Muthoni Drummer Queen

 

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Summer Seventeen Debrief (Audio Post)

captured by my babes, Vimbai

Introducing my monthly ‘Debrief’ in which I subject you to a little ramble about how my month went. Basically, new format to my previous ‘Thank You’ posts!

I hope you enjoy it! Press play, below:

References made:

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© Tessy Maritim

Working Through

When work is difficult, it’s natural to feel like you want to stop. Difficult work requires the best of you and it’s not always effortless.

If you find yourself in a difficult space, struggling to push through and deliver what you need to do, it’s perfectly fine to pause. A pause doesn’t mean you’re quitting. A pause means you’re giving yourself the room to feel inspired again; the room for an influx of new energy to recharge you.

When it’s difficult, work through it, engage and confront the tough issues. There are things you won’t be able to run away from- because any (good) work will require you to reach far and wide and pull your best self in to action. I’ve found it useful to have quiet moments to talk to myself and ask the critical questions- What’s going on here? What are you not happy with? What can you fix? What’s the next step?

If you find yourself facing something big and difficult, find a way to unpack it- divide and conquer. It works every time. For me at least, anyway.

But it’s also necessary to realise when you should walk away from something big and difficult. You don’t have to work through every situation that comes your way. Sometimes, leave it alone.

I’ve said this before here– even the things we love to do are sometimes big and difficult. I’m learning the discipline of putting my head down and just working through the difficult things that come my way. It’s scary and sometimes very overwhelming. But I try to see the discomfort and pain as a process- shedding my skin and growing into something new.

One of my favourite songs on Sampha’s album, Process, is Plastic 100°C, where he says:

It’s so hot I’ve been melting out here
I’m made out of plastic out here

You touched down in the base of my fears
And that’s when your beauty appears

The analogy of the sun (or fire?) and melting plastic is poignant. Sometimes the things that awake our fears are vessels for the growth of new and beautiful in your life. I’m learning to not be afraid of the heat, the pressure- it may be good for me.

But, as mentioned earlier, I say this with a caveat- don’t burn out. Step back when you need to. Your life, your health and your happiness are far more important.

I’d also like to always remember that even the work I love to do will be difficult, stressful and exhausting. That doesn’t take away from the fact that the work is still worth it.” | Alliance Francaise, Nairobi

I hope you find your rhythm again and may things come together for you!

T

© Tessy Maritim

This Month in Music (August 2017)

Music is such a central part of my life so I’ve been thinking about how to incorporate it into my blog. From this month, I’ll be sharing a monthly playlist with you- a curation of what I’ve been listening to. Music that’s made me smile, think, cry and dance. Some old tunes, some new.

Have a listen, let me know what you think.

 Track List: 

Too Fast- Sonder

Holy- Jamila Woods

Got Til it’s Gone- Janet Jackson

Teenage Love Affair- Alicia Keys

Lovestar- Common

Remember the Rain- Kadhja Bonet

Rendezvous- Craig David

Rivals- Usher ft. Future

Papa Lolo- Mose Fan Fan

This Kind Love- Patoranking ft. Wizkid

Rara- Tekno

 

Enjoy!

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© Tessy Maritim

Facing A New Direction

 

For a time when I refused to look elsewhere.

 

My eyes were fixed. Fixated. Captured. I refused to look elsewhere.

It was gone, but I refused to look elsewhere. As if my gaze would make it reappear.

Your gaze will not make it reappear.

Your eyes will hurt. Your soul will hurt.

Look away. Or close your eyes, at the very least.

 

It’s gone, but you are here.

Listen- there’s nothing good for you there anymore. Look away.

Take your gaze elsewhere. Your eyes are not captives. Set them free, baby.

A new direction. A new bearing.

We’re looking for more. We’re looking for different. We’re looking for ourselves, again.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?” (Isaiah 43:19) | Eldoret, Kenya

 

Your eyes will stop searching. Your eyes will stop seeing the same thing in a different place.

It won’t follow you forever.

A new direction. A new bearing.

 

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© Tessy Maritim

#faves: Instagram Feeds

It’s always interesting to see how people interpret the world around them through photos. Visual stories inspire and challenge the lens through which I see life. Most of the content on my Instagram feed is: architecture, design, fashion, food and travel.

It’s been a few months since my last #faves post, so I thought I’d share the content creators/platforms I love on Instagram.

ARCHITECTURE

@dezeen

@etna_11

DESIGN

@propercorn

@a.a.k.s

FASHION

@trevor_stuurman

Meet the Browns. 📸: @bobthestylist

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@lulamawolf

Imbokodo ✊🏾. #Gmg17

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FOOD

@shivesh17

@wrightkitchen

TRAVEL 

@asiyami_gold

Never put a price on experiences that enrich your soul. #tbt

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@lafrohemien

|The Wait|

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Hope you enjoyed this list! As always, would love to hear some of your recommendations!

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© Tessy Maritim