It’s been a while.
…so, I just wanted to say:
In case you’ve missed me- I am well. Just up and down, left and right- all over the place really.
My friends say I’ve lost a lot of weight! I don’t see it. But then again, we’re not always privy to the change that happens to us. Sometimes the people around notice before you do.
A time like this last year, things were really bad for me. At least, it felt that way.
My research proposal was not holding together like I hoped it would. Actually, things in general, were not holding together like I hoped they would.
Nothing I tried was working. I was drawing blood from a stone. Looking outside from the library to the Meadows, everything seemed far away- and yet the end was nigh.
I was trying to be calm but I was looking for help from everyone I came across. Hoping they would tell me something to soothe things because I truly felt lost.
I remember the feeling so vividly and often walk through it like it was yesterday. It was tough!
I’m telling you this so that in case you’re going through the same you know that you can make it through. As I tell you, I’m also reminding myself, for future reference- you can swim, when it feels like you’re drowning. Take it a day at a time. Don’t rush yourself.
2016 started off really well. And then crashed somewhere in the middle. The end was restorative, refreshing- desperately needed.
I’m hoping this year will end with a clean break. I don’t think I’m quite there yet. But seeing how far I’ve come since? Eish! I’ll make it through. At my own pace.
This life is full of roughness. But roughness comes with so many beautiful things that I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
“For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay” (Habakkuk 2:3) | Nairobi, Kenya
So yes, that’s it. Just wanted to let you know, in case you missed me.
© Tessy Maritim
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