On Darkness, Demons and (self) Destruction

see url Marshawn McCarrel, a 23 year old American activist, died last week from self-inflicted gunshot wounds. This is the message he left on his Facebook,

watch My demons won today. I’m sorry.

http://hosnaboen.no/?misoloie=single-jenter-troms%D0%93%D1%91&f67=7b I read those words and felt defeated. I feel defeated because it reminds me of the helplessness I feel watching people close to me suffer emotionally and mentally.

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Guida trading Sito iq option oscurato Opzioni binarie trade minimo Commenti iq option Nuove opzioni binarie Pattern opzioni binarie Iq http://www.mcmp.cz/biorefre/1908 You notice that they look different. Sound different. The energy is different.

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follow site They promise their okay. They smile at you, laugh with you and things flow back to their usual.

source link But it doesn’t last long. The darkness is persistent.

watch You hope. You pray. You hug them, tight.

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If your love could heal them, it would.

But they can’t receive the love. They can’t help it.

You get angry with them. Please, stop self-destructing.

But mental illness isn’t self-destruction. It’s like someone falling over, cutting their arm and then telling them to stop the bleeding. How?

There’s no switch on or off button for mental illness. It creeps into your life and you wonder how, why – I didn’t invite you..?

Here’s what I know- you can’t fix people. You can try- but it’s an exercise in futility. You don’t have magic healing power. Healing comes from within. Healing comes from God.

So don’t take it personally when your efforts are met with no response- it’s not about you.

That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t keep trying. Or that you won’t cry endlessly knowing that someone you love so much is in such pain.

You would give anything to see them whole again.

But again, just remember- it’s not about you.


See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you.”  (Isaiah 60:2) | Glasgow, Scotland

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