Just Like Before: A Pep Talk To Myself

Okay, you’ve done this before.

It always starts like this- seemingly impossible. Big. Scary. Above you.

Like a mountain. Insurmountable. Little me. How did I even get here?

Well.

You got here slowly. Step by step. One leg after the other. You divided and you conquered. You committed the journey to God. You covered yourself in prayer. You looked after yourself- every day, every moment. You reminded yourself that it’s okay.

You asked for help. You took breaks. You slept. You cried. You woke up, determined to face each day.

Looking ahead, it seems like there’s no way. It always feels like that. But remember the valley of dry bones:

Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

Ezekiel 37:4-6

This work, this life, may seem like an endless valley of dry bones. But, speak life into each situation. Watch the tendons, flesh and skin come together and bring life again. You can do it, just like before.

The journey will emerge, even if it doesn’t seem that way. Just like before, you’ll rise up to the occasion. Because you’re prepared, you’re capable. You are loved. You are precious.

Just like before, you’ll go up, across and down.

And you’ll celebrate. Not just at the end, but throughout the journey. Because small victory is still victory.

Remember that things may be different. You can’t always use yesterday’s blueprint for today’s journey. You may have to go back to the drawing board. Take time to think. Turn things upside down. Unpack the issues. Deconstruct, so you can construct again.

That’s bringing to life what was not there before. That’s the power you hold, never forget.

What seems above you is above you for a reason. So that you can stretch yourself. Make yourself bigger. That’s the essence of life and that’s what you’ve been praying for. A richer life. An exquisite life. This is what it looks like.

Kuvunjika kwa mwiko sio mwisho wa upishi” (Swahili Proverb) | Nairobi, Kenya

May you see life in all its colours. May you learn throughout the journey. May you always see yourself the way God sees you- as strong, as kind, as compassionate, as smart, as important, as special.

You can do it, again.

T

© Tessy Maritim

14 Reflections

Can’t believe how quick this year has flown by! It feels monotonous to always say the same thing at the end of every year but where does the time go?

I’ve had a great 2014. Although I can’t quite capture some of the high highs and low lows, here are some of my special 2014 moments.

 

Saw the Queen

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In February, my girl Nyambura and I went to see Beyoncé live. I’m not the biggest Beyoncé fan but she is a phenomenal performer. Being there was an experience like no other and the energy was infectious.

 

Lupita Season 

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Lupita’s success this year reminded me that the success I envision is not elusive. She reminded me that it’s possible. Adore her!

 

She wins, We win 

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I had no plans of running in an election but God did. The weird thing is that I had random thoughts in my second year of how amazing it would be to be part of the Students’ Union Executive. Somehow, what’s meant to be will always happen! My election taught me that there is nothing to ever lose by trying. Making an effort will always take you a step ahead. It’ll give you courage and fearlessness. You owe it to yourself to always try.

 

Page 3, darling 

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Soon after my election, I got several requests for features in Kenyan newspapers. To God be the glory! Yaasss.

 

Law School Graduate

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Earlier in the year I wanted to repeat my third year of university. I had received my January exam results and they were not great. So I figured that I would rather repeat than graduate with mediocre grades. But I wasn’t allowed to because I didn’t have mitigating circumstances that would justify me re-doing my final year. I was told that the chances of me pulling up my overall grade with the remaining set of exams were slim but my only chance nonetheless. So as you can guess my final semester of third year was tough. At the end of it all, I was content knowing that I did the best that I could. So whatever I achieved I would be at peace with. In the end, I graduated with a 2.1 Honors degree! My family was there to celebrate with me and I could not have asked for a more magical day.

 

Team Spirit 

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One of my favourite quotes is “If you want to fly with eagles, you have to stop hanging out with chicken”. So imagine how lucky and blessed I am to work with a team of 7 highly intelligent, brilliant, activist eagles. My mind has been stretched because they have each in their own way taught me something new about the world. Luvz my team!

 

My Money Story

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This event took 7.5 months of planning. I was in Manchester for 7 of those months. The execution of this event can only be attributed to my team and the guidance of God. I’m so thankful for a supportive and dedicated team who went all out to ensure everything was organized. Teamwork makes the dream work, for sure.

 

Oh hey AM Live

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Courtesy of The Arena, I did my first TV interview ever on AM Live! It was a wonderful experience and Kobi was so warm and welcoming to us.

 

Radio came calling too

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I did some radio as well in the run up to #MyMoneyStory and it was sweet! Made some good networks and met the loveliest people.

 

Family 

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My family make everything I do worthwhile. Celebrating success with family and friends is the sweetest!

 

Aspire Scholars

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I won a scholarship to attend the Aspire Women’s 2-day ‘Connected Leadership’ conference in December in London. ‘Networking’ is a word I have used a lot but this event taught me true networking!

 

Tiwa Sa-vage

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I would pay double what I paid to see this woman perform again- she is amazing live! She carried the show all the way and hit it out of the park.

 

fLAWless

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Relived my high school prom at our Law School Ball. Definitely had a princess moment!

 

As we step into 2015 in a couple of days, I wish you a groundbreaking new year. May success, whatever that means to you, be yours. Be great.

 

T

© Tessy Maritim