For most people, myself included, the new year is about a new resolve, a renewed vigour and a refreshed spirit. I love that about new beginnings! It gives you the opportunity to just start again. And we all need that from time to time.
My new beginning this year is quite stoic. Despite the fact that we’re in a new year, there is a still a lot that I carry forward from 2015. And I guess that’s the thing about new beginnings- although you resolve to start anew, there are things you can’t separate yourself from.
So you learn to co-exist. Hence the stoicism. I’m not making a resolution to be happy for the year. I just don’t get the point of that. It denies sadness of the opportunity to transform your life in a way that only sadness can. It’s a unique process that can’t be found through any other emotion. But- I’m not asking to be sad. I’m just saying- I won’t fight the process. I’ll take what comes.
There’s a lot I’d like to do and be this year. Three of which include:
- loving the people close to me better.
- maxing myself out- academically and professionally.
- replenishing myself, religiously.
I also want to continue to always be forgiving towards myself. It’s much easier for me to forgive others than myself. I disappointed myself at several points last year and after constructive introspection, I let things go, took them less as an indication of who I was and allowed myself to start again. I’d like to be the same way towards myself this year.
In 2016, I’d also like to always remember that even the work I love to do will be difficult, stressful and exhausting. That doesn’t take away from the fact that the work is still worth it. Or the fact that there’s actually no other place I would rather be.
I pray for the energy and strength to fight behind the scenes- at my desk, in meetings, in class, in conversation- because that’s where the magic really happens. It’s where my grades will be determined; where my ideas will actualise; where my mind will activate and where my spirit will grow.
“I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us” (Romans 8:18) | Sheffield, England (picture by my sister love, Tebby)
I hope you have a flourishing, meaningful 2016!
© Tessy Maritim